Beating the Blues

Some days I just want to stay in bed and pull the covers up around my neck and snuggle with my dogs. My dogs love me no matter if I have bed head or morning breath.

This morning, I dragged (is that the correct usage?) myself out of bed and into the shower but for some strange reason, I felt gloomy... could be the bad allergy symptoms making my eyes feel as though they will pop out of their sockets next time I sneeze. I realize my foundation, brow pencil, mascara, and pressed powder are all running out at the same time... it'll cost me a fortune next time I step up to the cosmetic counter. Ugh... that just reminds me I have birthday and father's day gifts to buy for upcoming events this month. Yikes... my daughter's 19th birthday is this weekend. I feel so dang OLD... that fact is obviously reinforced by all the grey in my hair which seriously needs a good cut. My favorite stylist lives in Utah and I cannot possibly afford to run off to Salt Lake anytime in the near future... Maybe I can hold out until my project team meets there again. Oh... work! Gotta grab something quick to eat on the way to work... goodness knows I cannot sacrifice 10 minutes sleeptime for a breakfast-at-home trade-off. The sky is overcast but I wear my sunglasses anyway. Park my car in the regular spot... I guess I beat Wendy in. I wish I could wear sunglasses while sitting at my desk today but I think those around me would think I'm losing it... maybe I am.

I feel disconnected. My brain is sluggish. Everything seems to be moving in slow motion. I speak to someone on the phone and cannot get the right words out... wonder what she's thinking of me now. Anyway, isn't it Friday yet? It's only Wednesday(!) but it's been a long week already. There is an air of doom hanging over the place. Some of Intel's best and brightest have been given the redeployment/separation option... My little problems are insignificant by comparison.

Note to self: Reflect ~ Meditate ~ Celebrate ~ Forgive ~ Empathize ~ Appreciate ~ Breathe ~ Bask in the warmth of the sun